'round & 'round

i'm sitting in a p.c. bang (p.c. room, aka, internet cafe) in pyeongchun, steps away from work. it's a bit smoky, (yes, koreans can smoke just about everywhere, there's ashtrays even in some bathroom stalls.) noisy--think, lots of internet games are being played, pow! kabang!--and blue. blue lights overhead. it's unbelievably warm and i'm beginning to feel like my job is an absurd disply of inefficiency.

a word about efficiency: i am an efficient person. it's an aquired trait, learned from my mother and from various jobs which required me to be on top of my game. sometimes, my uber efficiency methods have gotten the better of me, and i admit, it was not pretty. i've since learned not to be overly stringent about organization methods, or rather, i've learned that i cannot, nor do i want to, control things that i am unable to control. however, this is starting to get stupid.

(whoa. sidenote: random dude next to me is seriously getting into, INTO, his game! and shouting things like, "what can i do? how do i do that?!" all i can see, is someone running in the forest...oooh now, he's fighting some sort of hairy dragon monster!)

stupid in the sense that i feel like i'm circling round and round, asking the same questions to different people but not getting any concrete answers. stupid, yes? yes. and it seems that this is the way things are. so deal with it, right? right. welcome to teaching. welcome back to the working world.