we talked...

and then i cried.

i'm tired of feeling angry and i'm REALLY tired of feeling sad.

in an effort to make the heartache and pain go away quickly, i googled, "how to get over someone." yes, i know. i'm SUCH a nerd. there wasn't much that i didn't already know, but one website actually suggested that you find someone new:

"You need to find someone new. This is not going to be the one, they're only good for right now. Find someone nice to cuddle and go to movies and dinners with and when you're done, then end it. I know this seems harsh...and it is harsh, but enough's been done to you so you have every right to dish a little out yourself. Don't think of it as using, think if it as borrowing.. you're going to give it back when you're done."

WHAT THE FUCK?!?! but enough's been done to you so you have every right to dish a little out yourself. you've got to be fucking kidding me! please people, for the love of pat sajack, do not--DO NOT--heed that advice. where is there any compassion in that? whoever wrote that shit didn't and obviously still doesn't get that two wrongs do not make a right...and intentionally doing something just to "get back" is the most selfish and heartless of actions. and you wonder why rebounds occur! this fuckface is actually endorsing it and then justifying the action by saying you'll give it back when you're done--people are not objects to be used and then returned (which is really a nicer way of saying, discarded). sometimes, the way people think (and don't think--come on, people, THINK!) really scares me.

uhhhh, so no worries for me in that department. i'm not thinking of getting back, i'm only thinking of getting over.