extrovert, introvert, ambivert

this clear shift in seasons with its brisk mornings and quickly darkening evenings is allowing me to molt faster. i can feel it.

this year of the snake was a tumultuous, dramatic one, particularly ripe for self-awareness and self-care. and the "older" skin that my snake self began to shed earlier this year, with it's habitual patterns, is effectively loosening it's grip, releasing it's final holds...and i'm beginning to feel freer, sharper, lighter.

when i was younger and up until only recently, i characteristically thought of myself as an "extrovert." it's true that i don't mind being the center of attention--sometimes i love it!--and that when the mood is right, i'm a non-stop dancing, party machine. but, i'm also finding that just because i happen to be fun, it doesn't mean that i should feel forced to be "on" or fun when others expect it of me. lately, more often than not, i find too large of social gatherings and interactions incredibly exhausting and even, unpleasant. i'm becoming more attune to my sensitivity and need for calm, quiet, and solitude.

i love (and am so thankful for!) my new schedule of part time jobs: english and yoga instruction. when i'm not teaching, my down time during the day fuels my cravings for solo hobbies: bike riding, baking, writing, drawing studying korean, and reading. i am cultivating more of my introversion and i like it! i know that i don't even need to bother with labels (since i find them so distracting) so maybe it's more apt to say, i've always been an ambivert at heart and right now, i'm allowing fludity, finding and maintaining that balance of old and new, learning and BEING. and damn, does it feel good!